Weird Food

So, after a year of slowly transforming my body through exercise and diet, I have come to that point where I realize I like what I'm doing and I just want to keep doing it - for the rest of my life. That said, my dear, loyal and adoring husband is along for the ride for better or worse; my long-suffering partner in edible discoveries.

I am at a crossroads in my personal journey. For the last, we'll say 30, years I have been working to lose between 10 and 50 lbs. And as many know, those last elusive 10 lbs are a killer and often the measure we hold ourselves to that constantly makes us feel juuuust a little like a failure. Or at least, that's what it's done to me. Here I am at a strong and healthy 42 (I should post before and after pictures here!) and I feel like a failure because EVERY TIME I get close to that last 5 lbs and I think 'This time I will make it', I inevitably do something - consciously or subconsciously - to sabotage it and the scale 'sproings' right back up to 10 lbs over my goal.

I spend hours each day looking at and reading fitness, bodybuilding and nutrition blogs and books, scouring them all for a nugget of information that will be the key to unlock my impenetrable glass ceiling (or floor if you're looking at it from that perspective). I know that the ultimate key is my mind - controlling my thoughts. Yesterday and today have been a combination of failure to stay positive and success in saying 'F-you' to my cravings and temptations to knock off working out early, or going ahead and stuffing myself before going to bed at 8:30. Yes, I crawled into bed with my tea and ginger and apricot 'treats' at 8:30 because 'F this day, I'm going to bed'. Well, today hasn't fared much better so far, but we're not over yet.

Thank goodness for my loving and supportive husband, as well as a large handful of wonderful friends and family who give me perspective and encouragement along the way.

So, in the spirit of 'edible discoveries', I'll share with you as often as possible (shooting for once a day during the week) my nutritional concoctions as well as the 'science' and 'art' behind why I am eating what I'm eating. Feel free to chime in, but beware the crabby beast....